You’ve most likely seen those commercials for clinical depression. Usually the person suffering from depression (or more likely an actor) describes the symptoms. I don’t, by any means suffer from depression, but Friday night and Saturday morning I feel I had a pretty good idea what they were talking about. All I wanted to do was lay on the couch or go back to the bed. I had a bottle of wine I would have given anything to curl up with to escape and sleep the day away. I rarely feel this way, but it was a little scary. The only thing that kept me going was my kids. I knew they needed me. So, although I wasn’t the best mom during those hours, I made sure they were fed, clean and even played with them a little. Crafts, however were out of the questions. I just didn’t have the energy for it.
Finally, around 2:00 p.m. on Saturday I pulled myself out of it. I took a long hot shower and put on some makeup. It’s amazing how something so simple can make you feel so good. I felt human again. I managed to send a couple emails that I couldn’t deal with earlier that day. Then I loaded the girls up and went down to visit my mom.
Today, even without a lot of sleep last night, I feel so much better. Yesterday seems like a dream. Like I was in a fog and now it has been lifted. My head is clear. I let Diva help me make breakfast and now the girls are painting with watercolors. I’m excited to face the day and considering venturing out with the girls. Something I do all the time but seemed like an impossible chore just a few short hours ago.
My heart goes out to those who truly suffer from depression. I know a shower is not going to drag them out of the fog, but I pray they will find the strength to get the help they need. Life is so worth it.
8 comments:
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I do have depression and anxiety. Fortunately, with prescriptions, I can make it through the day
Nice post. I totally understood where you were coming from. Glad things are better today.
I also wanted to comment on how cute the section on your layout is that reads : The wedding party. :) I <3 the Bank. LOL!!
We have all been there and unfortunately, go there. I went through a spell awhile back and I was like, "WHAT is wrong with me? I have everything, I'm spoiled, so WTH?"
I mean, I'm an optimist, "A Glass Half Full Gal" and being depressed doesn't fit with my program.
But, we all need time to recharge...Since then, I've started taking more time for myself (even sometimes when I shouldn't) ten minutes reading a good book, ten minutes on the computer in-between tasks, and sometimes -- like today -- not doin' a D@mn thing I should.
It helps! Mom's don't get enough me time....
I know that occasional funk you experienced and it's not fun. So glad you were able to bounce back and enjoy your day. I wish for people with clinical depression that it was as easy as a shower or sunshine (for me), don't you?
We are learning all the time. Well done!
This speaks to me more than you can imagine! Take care of yourself!
I see those commercials on TV and sometimes I say to myself, "Yeah, I feel like that", but then I get up and get on with it because I have people who need me.
As you say, there are too many good reasons to push yourself out of that state of depression. I'm sure everyone finds themselves caught in the fog at times. I truly feel for those people who can't get themselves out of it, and encourage them to see help. As you say, life is so worth it. Sometimes it just takes an extra push to see that.
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